Maybe the desires we have is what the Creative Presence wants for us…
All My Love,
Zach
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Brothers, It’s Time To Be Warriors of Light…
UncategorizedBrothers, it is our time to BE the warriors that our sisters need us to be! Please share if you agree!
I SHOULD BE DEAD…
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This time 12 years ago I was driving home from Oakland Children’s Hospital after finishing my first round of chemotherapy. My dad was driving my grandma and I home in her white Toyota Camry. It was a rainy night…a good metaphor for the next 5 years.
When I think about those moments I think about how fucking lucky I am to be here tonight, able to write this.
This evening I watched a movie. It was called “Now Is Good.’ It chronicled a young 17 year old girl diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia who was out of options and decided it was time for her to live her life. No more chemo…if she would die she would live her life as fully as possible first. Throughout the movie I consistently resonated with the situations she was in…and it reminded me to live.
I began going through the numerous memories of vomiting, feeling so sick I couldn’t lift my head up, the weakness, not being able to recognize myself in the mirror…but most of all I remembered how I promised myself to live. I promised myself that I wouldn’t take life for granted, that I would every day as if it was my last. I promised myself that I would make it through the treatment and I be a demonstration for others.
When the girl died in the movie I thought how it could have been me. It brought me tears thinking about how that was the reality for many of my friends. Around this time 10 years ago I was waiting for a bone marrow transplant donor. I had nothing to go off of. Only the notion that a bone marrow transplant was a 50% cure rate and the belief in my heart that I would make it through it and be normal again.
I am grateful for these movies because they allow me to do my inner work. They allow me to self-question…”Would my younger self be proud of me? Am I living true to myself? Am I living for my friends whose voices are no longer heard? Am I making the impact on the world that I promised myself? Am I living the life I will be proud of? If I was to be given a 50/50% chance tomorrow would I change how I treat others and the risks that I take” These questions drift through my mind this evening.
And what I find from these inner quests is that I didn’t come to play it safe! I did not come as a soul experiencing this reality to play it safe. I didn’t come to worry myself with matters that are not important. And I didn’t come to wait.
When death is glaring at you so closely you gain a different perspective. You begin to look at things that truly matter…the relationships you have, the vessel that carries you, the joy in your heart. Nothing else matters. The bills will get paid, the tests will be taken, the cars will get fixed, but when you look back you will remember the kiss of your lover, the hug of your parent, the laugh of your brother, the fur of your puppy, the jokes with your friends…nothing else matters.
You see, based on statistics I should be dead, but I’m not. I’m here, right now…and that’s all that matters. The suffering I experienced allowed me a new perspective…I get to see the world through the eyes of the dying…of the dead. I can see the beauty in the flower blooming, because at times I didn’t know when I would see that flower again…I can appreciate a smile over and over because there was a time when I didn’t know if those pearly whites would be shining back at me. I can bask in the touch of someone’s skin because there was a time when I didn’t know if I would make it to the day to experience that perfection.
You see, I should be dead, but I’m not…and neither are you. What I’ve ultimately realized is that I am here for a reason, THERE IS A DAMN REASON I AM HERE…AND YOU TOO! Right now, right this very moment is the chance for us to see that! We are not here to wait for our job to make us happy, for our lovers touch to make us happy, for us to get healthy and then be happy…happiness is our choice NOW! Right now is the chance to live the life we want! Right now is the chance to go talk to that person who manages the business you want, right now is the chance to talk to that person who makes your heart beat faster, RIGHT NOW is the chance to start an exercise routine and begin nourishing your body with nature’s gifts.
You see, I should be dead, but I’m not…and I realized that that is a gift. This moment right now is my chance to give love to the world. Right now is my chance to tell you that I love you and we are all going through shit. Right now is my chance to tell you that you are strong enough and worthy enough to do what your heart calls you towards. Right now is my chance to say thank you…thank you for being you!
You see, I should be dead, but I’m not…and that’s a gift. So I ask you…if you only had one week to live, if you had one week to make a difference, one week to give all your love to your friends, family, lover, strangers, how would you start living? Find that and live that now.
All My Love,
Zach
The World Needs You…You’re Important!!!
UncategorizedDon’t ever question if you are needed, because you are a blessing to the Universe!!!
There Is No Healing…
Uncategorized“There is no healing. Healing is the name for a condition that comes about. You can not keep perfection away if you allow it to be.” ~Baird T. Spalding
Remember To Be Grateful…
UncategorizedI took a walk and shared a few of my thoughts on why it is important to be grateful.
All My Love,
Zach
YOUR CAPACITY TO LOVE…
UncategorizedAs human beings we have the unlimited capacity to Love. In our deepest understanding, the Essence of our being is truly Love. There is no darkness, there is no sin, there is no evil, those are ideas that have been propagated by those who did not understand Who-We-Are. We are the Infinite Light of the world, the untouched perfection of Divinity. You have the choice. The choice to remember that you are the embodiment of the Divine Principle and express Love, to embody your highest knowing in each moment…or the choice to forget Who-You-Are, to believe that you are a sinner, that humans are inherently evil, and that you are unworthy. Our capacity to Love is far deeper than our ability to fear, because innately we are Love. Give your Essence to the animals, the plants, your brothers and sisters, to Gaia…it is needed, YOU are needed!!!
Zach IAM
A POEM OF TRUTH…
UncategorizedAre you here for Love or are here for fear?
For those with hearts open, let them hear.
You have come for laughter, yet also for pain,
You have forgotten this Truth, so remember again.
This journey called Life will throw you ’round,
Do not get scared by the falls, for that is where You will be found.
Though the ups may seem joyous and the downfalls too hard,
By remembering your Core, you will not drift afar.
You see my dear child, you have come for a ride,
Though at times you will want off, stay strong and hold tight.
Because as you remember, you are the creator of it all,
No longer will the heights hamper your fall.
You will jump from great peaks, knowing that all will be well.
For there you will remember that you always lept, never fell.
From this space of mind, you sing the joys of the heart,
You were never a victim, but a joyous Creator from the start.
No words will convey the Truth only you can know from life,
It is not a race to the finish, but a game enjoyed through strife.
You are the spark of the Divine, the Light of the Source,
You are needed more than ever, to return to your course.
The world is not set up, for goodness and bad,
It is here for creation, to manifest what is yet to be had.
For in your understanding of Truth, and your breathing into the Flame,
God may now experience Itself, and all be returned to It’s name.
No wars are needed, nor a fight over perspective,
The Universe exists unto itself, and ALL should be respected.
The great Masters have taught, that all Beings are Divine,
That all beings are united, across all space and time.
But this you must remember, so that we can experience true Love,
All things are below, as they are up above.
For this great Truth will span all intellectual thought,
It shall be felt in the heart, in the ego it is not.
Please remember these words, my dear brethren of the Light,
For all of us shall remember, that within holds this sight.
All My Love,
Zach IAM
LOVE THEM ANYWAYS…
UncategorizedYou see, your Love is a gift. Not only is it a gift, but it is the very Essence of your Being. You are the embodiment of Love. When you choose to give Love, you choose to enter into union with the highest aspect of your Self. When you choose to give Love, you choose to help others see that within themselves. When you choose to BE Love, you are now the most power-full force in the universe.
There are times in life when it seems so incredibly difficult to give Love. It seems so far away to truly feel Love for somebody who has hurt us, or hurt another. It seems so difficult to give Love when we feel that life is draining us of our energy. It seems so difficult to BE Love, when all we can think about is getting the bills paid, returning our bodies to health, healing past relationships with family, friends, or lovers.
In those difficult times, we must remember who we are. No matter how difficult it may be to rise to the occassion, and accept where we are, we must go deeper below the surface of life. We must look within our hearts, we must search the depths of our souls, looking below all the insignificant turmoils of life, and realize how beauty-full we are.
We must remind ourselves that the Looker behind our eyes is not simply our brain, It is deeper. We must remind ourselves that the Taster beneath our tongue is not simply our brain, It is deeper. We must remind ourselves that the Feeler below our skin is not simply our nerves, It is deeper. The Experiencer that we are is not our body, It is much deeper.
In our truest nature, we are Love. We are the embodiment of Infinite Presence and Love. We are extensions of the One True Love. We are the expression of Divine Principle and Love. We are Love.
In knowing this, there is no longer need for judgement. We now understand that no matter how hurtful somebody’s words or actions can be, in their deepest heart, they are Love. When your boss calls you incompetent, go deep within your Self and Love them ayways. When your friend tells you that you are worthless, go deep within your Self and Love them anyways. When your parent calls you stupid, go deep within your Self and Love them anyways. When your foe strikes you with his fist, go deep within your Self and Love them anyways. When your lover breaks your heart, go deep within your Self and Love them anyways.
From that place of Love, you now know that all the strength in the world lies within You. From that place of understanding, all the forces in the Universe come to your aid and guide you. From that place of Peace, you can then know which path to take to live the Life you have set forth for yourself.
To Love, does not mean to accept abuse. It does not mean trying to fix somebody you think is broken. It does not mean accepting hurtful words and actions because you like who they use to be. It does not mean allowing others to treat you disrespectfully and laughing it off. To Love, means that no matter what anybody says or does to you that you can Love them anyways, and maintain an enduring Presence. It means that no matter what they say or do, you are now conscious of your response towards them. You no longer REACT in anger, but RESPOND in compassion. It means to give them your Love while allowing them to walk their own path. It means walking with an open heart and knowing who You are in each moment. It means to walk with the Infinite in each moment, and knowing fully that you are protected. To Love means to be You.
As You give your Love, the Universe responds with giving You Love…that is my promise! Spirit does not want you to suffer, but it will not ease your suffering without your consent. You are here to remember who You are. You are here to experience the full spectrum of human emotion and life experiences. You chose as an extension of the Divine to step forth into your physical body to experience ALL that life had to offer. And You knew that there would come a time when You would remember who You really are…and that time has come. Remember…search within the depths of your heart…breathe within the fire of your soul…You are Love! May you remember this all of your days!
All My Love,
Zach IAM
THERE IS A FORCE…
UncategorizedThere is a force in this world, in this Universe, in this thing we call Life, that is far more power-full than we realize.
This has been a topic I have been truly meditating on for the last week and I realized today that I should write about what wants to come through me.
You see, this physical world that we seem to experience is a beauty-full gift. These vessels that carry us through time and space are a beauty-full gift. Our ability to experience all that this reality has to offer is a beauty-full gift. But many of us have lost sight of that, have we not? We have forgotten who we are. We have forgotten the all-encompassing beauty that surrounds us, that is within us, at all times.
Most human beings move through life as if it is a means to an end. “If I act good and righteously now, then when I die I can go to heaven,” they think. Is this not more true than we realize? Many of us who call ourselves “spiritual” may still feel that way. “I want to go home!” we cry. “This pain from this lover is too much to bare!…My body vessel is too sick for me to carry on!…I feel so alone I want to be with my true family!…” Do we not find ourselves doing this at times?
We must remember, and remind ourselves constantly, that each of us CHOSE to be here at this time and space. We made a conscious CHOICE from a Higher Perspective, from Non-Physical, to come forth into these beauty-full vessels and experience, and CREATE, all that this physical experience had to offer. However, we move through life as if life is just happening to us. We break up with a partner, we get sick, we lose our job, all the while blaming some “God” we don’t understand, or saying that the world is just unfair.
We rarely take the perspective of our Higher understanding. We rarely look through the eyes of our True Self, of our Divine Self, and consciously accept the fact that we create every experience we have. We rarely accept the fact that there is a force so incredibly potent that it not only directs all of Life, but is all of Life. And almost never do we realize that that very force is moving through, and within, us by virtue of the thoughts we hold.
An example of forces if I may…
Right now, in this very moment, we are floating on a rock in the middle of nowhere. For a minute imagine you are the sun looking at earth. Earth is literally a rock floating in space, there is nothing holding it there other than an unknown force, right? Do you understand that force? Do you understand how the earth and all the other planets are not falling out of orbit around the sun, other than this unknown force? I sure as heck don’t!
Another example…
Right now, in this very moment, an unknown force is holding your vessel in contact with the ground. Again, if you look at the earth from the sun’s perspective, your body could be on the bottom side of the earth right now, yet there is a force that is holding your body from just falling out into the nothingness of space. What is that force? Obviously we call it gravity, but what does that mean? You literally are upside down right now from the perspective of the sun and yet you remain grounded to the earth.
These forces are far more power-full than simply giving them the title of “gravity” and whatever else force is holding earth in orbit. Without these forces that govern your very life you would not be able to experience the beauty of this world. You do not fully understand these forces yet you abide by them do you not? Similar to these forces are the power-full forces of your thoughts. Many of you may have heard of the Law of Attraction, but the term I heard and like to call it is the Law of Expression.
The Law of Expression is the universal law that states that the Divine Principle, God, is experiencing life through you and expressing itself through you in the form of your thoughts, words, actions, and therefore manifestations. It created Itself in the form of you so that it could experience Itself again and again through fresh experiences and new eyes. Your eternal soul IS that aspect of yourself that is the True You, your Higher Self, and is your God Self. The Divine Mind, does not care which experiences you have because It knows that all is well. Divine Mind does not question if there are dark forces because it knows that no plethora of darkness and ever impede on the Light. When a match is lit, it alights a dark room every time.
So if Divine Mind does not care which experiences you have, it is all really up to you to bring new life into the world. Every time you give rise to a new fresh desire, a new fresh wanting, Divine Mind says, “Yes! I like this idea and I want to experience through your eyes my beauty-full child!” And so as you hold true to that thought Divine Mind begins to align all of your experiences so that It can experience that through you!
The problem is is that few of us truly believe this force exists. The force that governs worlds, and directs all things is within you for you to use at your disposal. Just like gravity, you may not fully understand it, but nonetheless your life is governed by it and you abide by this Law whether you are conscious of it or not.
The reason you want to be in a relationship so badly is because Source, God, wants to experience that through you! The reason you want a healthy body so badly is because Source, your Higher Self, wants to experience that through you. The reason you want to have financial abundance is because Spirit wants to experience that through you. The reason you want to help others so badly is because Spirit wants to experience that through you. In allowing God, your Higher Self, to move through you through the thoughts you hold, the words you speak, and the actions you take, the whole of the Universe expands. You are now giving humanity and the Universe a gift by simply holding true to knowing that your thoughts are expressing God.
There is a force is this world that is more power-full than we can comprehend. There is a force in this world that is creative beyond recognition. There is a force in this world that has the ability to bring peace to all beings. There is a force in this world that sees all beings and things as extensions, expressions, of the One. There is a force in this world that is Love. This force in this world is You.
May you remember that all of your days!
All My Love,
Zach IAM
Spiritual Life Coach | Zach Tavcar 