A Poem of Faith
I want to share a poem from the book, “The Life and Teachings of the Far East” that has been a favorite of mine for years and has helped me through some dark times.
I was around 15 years old when my dad and I were watching the MTV Video Music Awards when Beyonce won best artist. She walked up on stage, overwhelmed, and said, “First and foremost I’d like to thank God.” When I heard that I blurted out, “Why is she thanking God, he didn’t do anything, she did all the work!” My dad looked at me and replied, “What do you mean? The reason you’re here is because of God!” I thought for a second, pondering life, and that’s when things started to change in my consciousness.
Now this isn’t your average story of God. This isn’t a tale of a man becoming Christian, this isn’t about me blasting my beliefs and forcing them in anyone’s face, this is a different kind of story.
As a kid, our family were the typical, go to church on holiday, kind of church goers. My parents were both raised Catholic and seemed to have consistent views on their beliefs of God. I, however, thought church was incredibly boring, listening to an old white guy in a funny hat repeat boring scripture. When I got into middle school, I joined a Baptist church with my best friend and found myself more interested in the message of the bible. However, the stories were exactly that to me, stories. I didn’t truly believe a man walked on water, healed the sick, died and came back to life, it seemed like a great story, but a story nonetheless. Needless to say, when I was young I never developed a relationship with any higher power. I knew that if I put in the work to achieve what I wanted, I would reap the benefits. That was until I went through 5 years of chemotherapy treatment after having cancer twice as an adolescent.
You see, when I was 15 and watched Beyonce thank God I thought that was a cop-out. I truly felt she was just being diplomatic and didn’t actually thank God. My dad’s response was in reference to my still being alive after having already gone through my first year of chemotherapy and still being alive. I however, felt differently. I felt that as a result of myself, as a result of ME, that I was in remission. That changed within a year.
At 16 I relapsed and had a much different experience that time. I was no longer isolated in a room with no other kids around. This time I was in a hepa-fitered pediatric oncology ward and saw kids as young as 1 year old with tubes coming out of their chests receiving chemo. I looked around and thought, “What kind of God would do this?! How can we believe in God if He has the power to heal and yet all these kids are sick?!” It made no sense to me. This questioning took me down the rabbit hole.
When I was 19 I was given the documentary, The Secret, by a friend of my dads and that’s when it clicked. If you have not seen this documentary, I highly recommend you see it. However, the basis of the film is on the Law of Attraction. A law that is similar to the laws of gravity, yet not as recognized or understood by humanity. This law describes that “That which is like unto itself is drawn,” meaning, like attracts like. This film explains that thoughts are the creative force of all life and that the universe at large is responding to our thoughts and bringing us experiences which match those thoughts. As soon as I saw this film it was as if I was in heaven! I thought, “FINALLY!!! Something that gives me validation that I am the director of my own life and I will never have to rely on anything or anyone ever again!!!” Boy did I interpret that wrong!! 😉
That was 9 years ago and I have just recently in the last 3-4 years begun to develop a true relationship with God. And honestly, only the last year have I begun to develop a strong faith in the co-creative dance that happens between my thoughts, words, and actions and the manifestations of God.
Why I began writing today was because I felt inspired. 10 years ago I wouldn’t have had any idea was inspiration was, that I should just do something. I had no understanding of what was guiding me or why I had such a feeling, simply that I should do it. Now even though I stated earlier that I never cultivated a relationship with the Divine as a child, I always felt like I was being guided. I always had this intense push from within that told me I had to be strong and push on, no matter what the obstacle. Everything in my life was just an obstacle so that I could get stronger and rise above it. Today I finally understand what was guiding me.
You see, no matter if you choose to believe it or not, there is a Presence that directs all things. Not direction in the form of dictation, but a mere guidance to the path of truth. The trees are not forced to grow, yet they are guided to move to full size and provide oxygen, bear fruit, create homes for insects and other critters. Insects and animals are guided to build dams, collect nectar, dance among the sky, never forced yet always guided. Similarly, this Presence guides us home. This Presence, whether you call it God, or Source, or energy, it does not matter, you do not influence Perfection, perfection influences you.
As such, seeing as that this Presence is the Source of all that Is, the Source of All Life, this Presence knows beyond a question of a doubt which path is right for you in any area of your life. As an extension of this Presence, you have the choice to connect fully with this Divine Mind, or pinch yourself off It. It does not matter to Source what you choose in the moment because we are all free to do as we please, yet the joy of a child coming home far outweighs the choice of the child to stay away and not come and visit. Source is always beckoning us home, always reminding us in the most of subtle ways to return home, to return to our hearts.
You see, there was a time in my life where I thought I was all alone, doing it all by my lonesome. And it wasn’t until I realized it was much harder going at it alone than it was to challenge my beliefs and listen to that inner voice, the Voice telling me that I was looked after and protected. The Voice that guided me to the books and the documentaries and the constant reminder to return to Love.
You see my friends, this is a story of faith. Faith does not belong to religion. Faith is a state of being. Faith is a habitual practice of communicating with Source, with your Self. Faith is so much better than sitting alone wondering which direction you will take and weighing all the outcomes. Faith is about quieting yourself, quieting your mind, and with a clear intention listening to the Voice that has been guiding you anyways. As soon as you’re quiet, you will hear that Voice whisper, “This way my child, I’ll be right beside you the whole way.”
All My Love,
My Time = 22:08
Shauna’s Time = 23:48 (7 Pull-Ups & Bar Dips)
Today’s mental workout will be focused on playing the “wouldn’t it be nice if…” game. Set a timer for 10 minutes and close your eyes. Say to your self, “Wouldn’t it be nice if…” and finish the sentence with what it is you are desiring. Play this as if you are imagining all the possibilities you have ever desired. Start with the things that you don’t have a lot of resistance against, such as “Wouldn’t it be nice if someone told me I had a nice smile.” Things that really you don’t have a lot of resistance against. As you do this, really feel what it would be like to have someone tell you that you have a nice smile. After you have begun to feel more uplifted move on to the things that you are REALLY desiring. You could say, “Wouldn’t it be nice if I met the perfect partner for me and had a nice conversation with them.” As you play this, remember that it is key to FEEL the feeling of being in the situation, experiencing what it is like to be in actual circumstance. Continue playing this until you are truly feeling better or until the timer goes off.
“When you come to the Red Sea place in your life where in spite of all you can do, there is no way ’round, there is no way back, there is no other way but through. Know God with a soul serene and the dark and the storms are gone. God stills the waves, God stills the winds, God says to your soul, Go on! Go on! Go on! Go on!” -Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East
Manifesting your dreams can be attributed to many factors, but the number one is…
Journal Entry 3/11/15
My discussion on the notion that darkness somehow has the ability to over-power us. Please take the time to watch if this catches your eye 🙂 ❤
I’m not sure how I see this post going. I have many things pulsing through my mind and heart but I want to share what I am feeling with those of you who choose to read this. I just have watched 4 videos entitled “My Last Days” on YouTube. During these videos I cried, I remembered, but most of all I was inspired.
These videos chronicle individuals who have been diagnosed with terminal illnesses, mostly forms of cancer. As most of you know me, I am a cancer survivor. Each one of these individuals’ stories I can resonate with. I can remember being in the hospital room waiting for test results to come back, I can remember hearing the news I would do anything to forgo, I can remember being scared of the 50/50 chance I was given, but most importantly I can remember saying to myself, “When I am finished with this I KNOW nothing can stop me and I will live my life to the fullest!”
But each time I watch one of these videos I recognize how truly limited I am living. How I am NOT living my life to the fullest. I am not sharing my story with the world and helping others to see that full healing is possible. I am not ALWAYS living with an open heart and looking into the eyes of my brothers and sisters to reduce their suffering. I am not always living to the full potential I am capable of.
However, each time I watch these videos I am also reminded that that is why I am here. I am here for a reason far bigger than my conscious understanding…we all are. I was given a Divine gift in the form of not only having cancer, but of overcoming it. I have a perspective of life and death that so few of us can conceive. We, myself included, go through life with the idea that we’re in it all alone, that the world is testing us and trying to hurt us, that we are isolated on our own little island…which could not be farther from the truth.
These videos always remind me to take THIS VERY MOMENT, RIGHT NOW, and change the world! They remind me to take the steps forward to give my deepest gifts to humanity, even if I can’t see the path clearly. They remind me that THIS MOMENT, NOW, is the only moment I will ever have and to give my Heart to all who will receive it. They remind me that the time for taking chances, for leaping into unknown waters, and for doing what my Heart calls me to do is not tomorrow, it is not next week, it is not when God has aligned everything, it is THIS MOMENT, NOW. THIS MOMENT, NOW, I can take those steps and allow God to carry me with Her as she Lights the path of Love for me.
THIS MOMENT, NOW, is the time to tell your long lost lover that you have been thinking of him/her…THIS MOMENT, NOW, is the time to consciously decide that you will live true to your deepest heart and follow your bliss…THIS MOMENT, NOW, is the time to make the choice to eat health-fully and move your body in Nature…THIS MOMENT, NOW, is the time to choose LOVE. NO matter who you meet, no matter what they have done to you, no matter who they are, you will choose to gaze upon them with a full heart and an open Spirit and envelope them in your giving. No matter what has happened in your past you will choose to believe that the Divine Creative Principle is always guiding you to live your deepest truth and experience joy.
THIS MOMENT, NOW, is the time to remember why we are here. The bills will come and go, the money will come and go, the friends will come and go, the lovers will come and go, but THIS MOMENT, NOW, we can choose to remember our purpose. THIS MOMENT, NOW, we can decide if we want to look at all the rubble piling on top of us, or focus on the unlimited blessings in our experience. THIS MOMENT, NOW, we can let our minds wander to the “what if’s” and “should have’s,” or direct our thoughts to the “I will’s” and “I AM.”
THIS MOMENT, NOW, is the only moment any of us will ever get. All of life exists NOW, not yesterday, not tomorrow, NOW. Remembering that empowers us, it reminds us that THIS MOMENT, NOW, is where we have the ability to choose where we go from here…we don’t have to know all the steps we will take to get there, but we have the Power to take the first step. THIS MOMENT, NOW, empowers us to be thankful for all the experiences that have led us to this very moment, summoning Life through us through our desires, so that we may live true to our deepest purpose. THIS MOMENT, NOW, gives us the chance to remember that we are the embodiment of Love, and we have the choice to feel that Love or resist it.
I hope that those of you who read this, also watch the video I post. We are here to experience the unending Bliss of our NOW experiences. Remember who You are, look deeper into your Heart, You are Source in a physical extension…live true to that in THIS MOMENT, NOW.
All My Love,
We have to believe that all the walls that are tumbling down around us are so that we can see the Light of the Sun that has been hidden for so long. We have to believe that everything that we held so dear that is coming crashing down is Spirit’s way of opening us up to all that is headed our way. We have to have faith that as all the beliefs we held true that made us believe the illusion come completely undone, the Infinite supply of Divine abundance will shine it’s Light upon us.
You see, I remembered today that Great Creative Principle wants to work through us. That aspect of our Self, that is beyond our body, beyond our minds, our True Self, wants and has a purpose to fulfill. We came to this earth experience as spiritual beings in human forms so that we may experience the grandeur of this reality and to fulfill the purpose we set forth for ourselves. Some of us are conscious of that purpose, others are still looking, but most of us, when we truly quiet our thoughts and listen to our hearts, know what purpose we have come forth to fulfill.
This purpose, I should add, is what you want it to be. If you can fathom being an Infinite Being with unlimited potential, wanting to strengthen your inner knowing and belief in yourself as an extension of the Creative Source, wouldn’t it sound like fun to head on down to Earth and express that creative potential and in doing so lift the whole of humanity? You, as a spiritual being, chose to come forth into this reality at this time so that you may live the purpose you set forth for yourself and uplift humanity! We all did! And that purpose is very easy to find, or realize. All you have to do is ask yourself one simple question…
“What uplifts my heart of hearts and fulfills me more than anything else? When I do _____________________________ I could do it absolutely all day, every day, and not grow weary. When I am__________________________I feel like time slows down and I feel completely full of life and invigorated with Love.”
Whatever you used to fill in the blank is your life purpose. That is why when you take part in that you can do it all day and you love it so much! By feeling good we are in alignment with what the Mother/Father Principle is wanting for us. You came forth with the intention of remembering that you are a beauty-full creative extension of the One, and that you would allow Spirit, your Higher Self, to flow through you so that you would uplift humanity and Gaia, and that you would feel the delicious creative expansion of this life experience!
The reason so many things always fall apart can be deduced to 1 reason, you are not respecting your soul and living true to your heart…you are not fulfilling your purpose. God is constantly removing you from this environment or that environment, or this job or that job, or this relationship or that relationship, and doing It’s best to give you the reminders of what your life purpose is, but you keep resisting the flow of life. At times don’t we think we know better than God. Truthfully? We think we know how things should unfold, and in what manner, and when they don’t go exactly as we planned we get upset or sad or depressed or feel like things aren’t working in our favor, when in actuality all the things that are coming undone are gifts!
You are asking for help…Source is responding saying, “Yes, you are right, you DO deserve that!”…so the Universe begins to rearrange what comes into and out of your life, but then you start seeing things coming undone and you think, “Hey! I thought things were suppose to be coming in, not falling apart.”…and so you resist the changes that are making it possible to experience all the desires you want to experience and to begin living your life purpose.
You are NOT smarter than the Infinite Creative Principle!!!
As we realize that the Universe is not smiting us, but rather reorganizing itself so that we can share our deepest gifts to the world, we can begin to relax. This is the faith component. As we begin to hold true to the belief that the Universe wants to work through us and will rearrange itself for us so that I can share our gifts to the world, life becomes a game. The stress of finding the job, or hustling to make that paper, or running around like a chicken with its head cut off, subsides and we can then listen to the inspiration we are being given so that we can take inspired action.
Our hearts will be open to receiving the guidance of talking to this person, or eating lunch at that restaurant, or going to the gym at this time, or taking a right at this light, or, or ,or…the possibilities are endless. As we let go of trying to figure out how everything will happen, and have faith that it is and has already happened, we find that place of stillness within ourselves where our true Power lies. That place of nirvana where we trust that our Source is leading us to exactly where we want to go and in the way where we can give our deepest gifts!
It is time that we remember that we are here to give our gifts and Source is always supporting us. It is time that we remember who we are and have faith in the God Principle of which we are united. May you be reunited with your Truth!
All My Love,
Hello My Lovelies,
Wanted to share something that came to me tonight!
All My Love,
Hello My Lovelies,
My dear brothers and sisters…why are we making this so damn difficult?! Why are we making this “spiritual” life so difficult for ourselves and others?! Here’s some insight for you…you don’t need to DO anything to BE who you are! You don’t need to do anything to embody Divinity. You don’t need to visualize the rainbow bridge to uplift Gaia. You don’t need to go to any sacred site and flood in the crystalline grid or anything else to shine your Light. The DOing is in recognize we ALL are Spirit and living true to that.
We consistently aim to intellectualize Spirit, to intellectualize what it is we need to do to help Gaia, to intellectualize our relationships with each other and God, intellectualize…intellectualize…intellectualize. No more! “Who am I?” “Why am I here?” “Where will I go?” “How do I ascend quicker?” Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
Now I am sorry if I sound quite cynical tonight, but I consistently see others constantly doing this, and I also find myself doing this. Here’s a suggestion…relax! Those who are reading this would consider themselves, “spiritual,” “Light-bearers,” “Indigos,” whatever other title you’d like to proclaim…but here’s one for you…I AM. Simply I AM. No more titles, no more labels, no more intellectualizing Spirit, no more spiritualized egos, I AM. We are ALL here to change the world in some way! That is exactly why all 7 billion of us are here…to remember our deepest knowing, to live from that Truth, and to inspire others to see that within themselves…plain and simple.
“I need to meditate THIS way, facing THIS direction, visualizing THIS thing in order for me to bring Light into Gaia.” When Gaia simply needs you to BE the Light! The Light comes from no where else but the silent space within your own heart! You are the Eternal God present in a physical vessel! Gaia needs you to BE You! Gaia needs You to live from the Truth within your own heart! Gaia needs you to proclaim to yourself that You are Source, that You are Spirit, that You are Forever, simply…I AM!
And another thing…you don’t need to quicken anything!!! You already are that!!! If you have conceived it in thought, then somewhere, you ARE that! You don’t need to quicken your manifestations…you need to relax and enjoy the unfolding of them! You need to sit back and watch as the Universe yields to you the beauty of your desire. This life experience is not made to just keep manifesting and manifesting and manifesting and manifesting…what kind of fun would that be?! You came forth knowing that as you conceived anything in thought and held true to that vision that you would undoubtedly receive exactly what you asked for! You KNEW that the joyous FUN part would be in witnessing the unfolding of that desire! Not in receiving the desire…that is a given! You can’t help but receive! The fun was in KNOWING that you were already that which desired to be, that you already had all that you desired, and watching as the simplest demonstrations of Source express exactly what it is you saw yourself already having!
This works just as well with Gaia. Gaia already IS healed. Gaia already HAS attained fifth dimension ascension…the work is done, so now you can sit back relax and walk through life with the understanding that you are already where you want to be! In walking with that attitude you have already expressed more Light than 100 visualization sessions! If you’re always asking to manifest quicker, manifest quicker, manifest quicker, yet you never listen to the guidance you are receiving, how are you going to manifest at all? The manifestation comes in accordance with your faith and belief that it already IS! And when you have that unmoving faith you can enjoy all the synchronicities that show you exactly what is already here.
There is nothing intellectual about faith…that is only something you can FEEL. Life is not about intellect, intellect, intellect, it is about feeling. Why do you LOVE sex so much, because in the midst of that moment with another extension of yourself you are free of thought, you are fully enraptured in the moment, touching, smelling, tasting your lover and in the moment you are silent! Unless of course you are just humping then your mind is more than likely busy with other things 😉 The BEST parts of life are felt, not intellectualized. Our thoughts are a gift, our emotions are a gift, and they should be treated as such.
We don’t NEED to know exactly how we are going to ascend! We don’t NEED to know exactly how we have changed the world. We don’t NEED to know how we’ll meet our perfect partner. We don’t NEED to know how we’ll enter our dream career, whatever that means to you. We don’t need to intellectualize it all. What is the fun in already having all the answers? If you had all the answers life would be SUPER boring!!! Life is so much more fun knowing that miracles will happen and leaving it up to Spirit to figure out how!
Feel your way through life. Listen to your heart, listen to your gut, listen to your intuition, those are far greater tools than your distracted mind and someone else’s opinion. Be thankful for your feelings and emotions, they are such wonderful gifts! Play, and enjoy the game of life! It’s all just a fun little rollercoaster. You won’t need to KNOW so much when you already FEEL what is right and what already IS. The intellect has no comprehension of Infinity, so stop using it to understand life. Feel your way within life and appreciate the inner knowing you already possess.
With All My Love,
P.S. this post went all over the place!!! Haha! However, “Who am I” is an incredibly power-full question to ask yourself to be felt in your heart, not intellectualized 😉
“Divinity is God in every form, in every thing. The Christ is the Power to recognize that Divinity within.” ~Jesus