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Where Is OUR Compassion? (Somehwere Within You You Know)
UncategorizedI want to preface this by saying this may very well be the most inarticulate and aggressive blog I have ever written. I write this with a heavy heart. Hurting for my animal brothers and sisters as well as questioning my human brothers and sisters.
I just finished watching 2 videos. The first with a 2 year-old girl being hit by a car and having bystander after bystander walk and drive by her for roughly 5 minutes before anyone took the time to see if she was injured…which she was by the way and did die. The second video had to do with animal abuse at rodeos. Now the only question I could ask myself is, “Where has OUR compassion gone? Where has our humanity gone?”
Each and every human being is a perfect extension of that which we call God, or Spirit, or Source, EVERY…SINGLE…ONE…and yet we refuse to acknowledge that. How far we have fallen as human beings! We are made in the image and likeness of the Creator, absolute extensions of the Creator, and yet look at how we treat our Earth, our animals, each other!! We poison our Earth, our Mother, with gas and chemicals, and pollute Her rivers and waters with our “technology!” We kill living beings for food! We take life not understanding what it is we do because supermarkets prepare it all nicely for us so we don’t have to consider the fact that the meat we ingest was once part of a Divine extension of Source just as well. We kill each other over beliefs, over ideas, over resources, over false power, over WHAT?!
Each and every single human on this Earth is a Divine extension of God, every single animal on this earth is a Divine extension of God, each and every tree and plant is a Divine extension of God, and yet we walk this Earth never appreciating what our Mother does for us! Not knowing that the very ground we walk in provides that life force that nourishes our very vessels. Not understanding that our sins come not because we are born sinners, but because we refuse to listen to the Divine guidance that is our True Self. We are sinners because we learn to sin! We take life because we learn to take life!! We refuse to acknowledge our Divinity because others tell us we are limited! We refuse to walk this Earth as if each step we take is a blessing! We refuse to walk this Earth and acknowledge that every bug, plant, and animal that we encounter is Spirit in a different form! We refuse to see Spirit within each other, and look at what we have accomplished!
Wars, fear, killing, greed, murder, cruelty, pain, sorrow, all because we REFUSE to acknowledge who we all are. If Jesus, or Buddha, or Krishna, or any religious Teacher were to come forth and look at our actions and words toward each other and this planet, what do you think they would say?! I am doing my best to be compassionate, and I understand we all have our journey to take, but WHY DO YOU REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE OUR DIVINITY?!?!
What is wrong with accepting the fact that you are God?! Is it because it is sac-religious? Is it because a book written thousands of years ago, and changed countless times by fear-full men, and used to enslave humanity, says it is wrong? What is wrong with accepting the fact that we are all connected?! That we are all in this together!? That we are all extensions of One Soul looking at ourselves through a different perception?! Why is that so difficult to even ponder?! Ask yourself!!!
Why are we so mean to each other? Why do we refuse to look each other in the eyes and smile? Why do we constantly cast judgement on each other based on appearances or beliefs or whatever the case may be? Am I casting judgement right now? Probably. But do I cast judgement for our upliftment? Probably.
We have fallen so far as a collective. Can you imagine what it will be like when we re-emerge into our True form, our Soul Self, and realize how ridiculous our words and actions were? Can you put yourself into that place of BEing in complete Harmony with God and having that understanding that we are all One? Or are you afraid to do that? Are you afraid to take that step to even ponder that it is not blasphemy to acknowledge that you are an extension of Perfection, and that all other beings are as well? Why are you afraid? Is it because of what you have been reading in a 2 thousand year-old book for the last how ever many years and somehow think you will be punished by some outside force, or is it because you refuse to forgive yourself for your past actions and words and need “something else” to forgive you?
And I know that we are awakening as a collective, not just America, or North America, but as a global society. And I know that we are evolving consciously as a whole, I just still see so much fear and hate and anger coming from my brothers’ and sisters’ words and actions and I wonder when we will all decide that killing another living being, including the Earth, is not part of our intention as Spiritual BEings entering into our physical vessels.
For anyone who reads this, there is no need to respond to this, these are all rhetorical questions from within You. These questions are not my questions, these are OUR questions. Somewhere within you you know that taking life is not why you are here. Somewhere within you you know that intentionally harming anything else through words or actions is not why you are here. Somewhere within you you know that we are all One. Somewhere within you you know that it is our task to change the world as a collective. Somewhere within you you know that the lies we have been told all our lives are false. Somewhere within you you know that all the answers lie within your heart and it is your task to awaken them. Somewhere within you you know that each and every one of us is an extension of Spirit. Somewhere within you you know that these words are YOURS!
We MUST regain our compassion, our understanding of who we are. THAT is OUR task and only through our thoughts, words, and actions can we make a change. By listening to heart we will regain our compassion. By listening to that inner voice we will regain our compassion. Our Mother Earth cannot sustain such cruelty, if we do not look in the mirror and make the change that we all want, who knows what the consequences will be.
Our task is to BE that which we are. OUR task is to BE Love. And through that BEing we can overflow to each other and all living BEings. Let us awaken our inner knowing and LIVE that Life fully.
With All My Love,
Zach IAM
Faith In Your Highest Self
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As I’m sitting here, looking at pictures of a 2 year-old boy currently going through what I went through 9 years ago, I ask God, Source, Infinite Presence, what can I do to help this beautiful boy? What can I do to heal this beautiful extension of Divinity? If his parents asked me how I got through it, how would God answer through me? And the answer Source whispered to me was, “Have Faith.”
As most of you who read these know, I am not a religious man. I find myself to be a journeyer, learning from not only great Masters, but Nature, and everyone I meet. Even if you are an atheist, Buddhist, Muslim, Christian, Agnostic, Hindu, Taoist, whatever you label yourself as, what all religions teach is Faith.
What would I say to a family who was experiencing such difficulty as a serious health condition, “Have Faith.” Somewhere within each and every one of us is the Divine Flame. It cannot be found through scientific means, but only be felt by a seeker of peace and harmony. It is not blind faith, where you just allow your life to be dictated by a supposed higher power or being. It is a knowing within yourself that what you desire, a healthy child, is exactly what God wants for you and to Know that the Mother-Father WILL heal your child.
I only say this because as I went through my experiences the only choice I had was to listen to one of the 2 voices within me. I had one voice saying, “This is too hard we won’t make it. We should just call it quits. You’ll never get better,” the voice of the ego. The other voice proclaimed, “You can overcome this. I am with you always and you will be healed if you walk the path. I have already healed you but you must make the choice yourself,” the voice of Divinity within me. At the time I didn’t understand how important my decision would be, but I KNEW that beyond a doubt I would soon be free from any dis-ease.
I want to share something very profound that was given to me by the Masters. It is the statement that the very reason that you have the desire for something is that it already exists. We can not want air if it did not exist. In this reality of duality we have 2 sides of the coin, yet in totality we just have a coin. So, if one side of the coin is in existence, the other side of the coin is equally in existence. It is just that we have been focusing so much on the tails-side of the coin that we have forgotten to turn the coin over and look at the heads-side. We keep looking at the tails-side and say, “This is reality! Look! You can see it just as readily as I can!” But if you no longer desire to experience the tails-side, if the tails-side has run its course, all we have to do is flip it over, and we do that through our awareness.
Faith enters in to this because although we flip the coin over it will take a little time to fully see the heads-side. But the very reason you want to have a child healthy, or for you to be healthy, or whatever the desire, is because that part of you that is God is telling you that it is time to turn the coin over. That the coin is much more shiny on the heads-side and you have the power to experience that if you would just turn the coin over. We must have Faith that it will BE our experience if we can pay attention to the heads-side.
Faith is our greatest lesson. It is repeated in all scriptures, in every religion. Jesus said, “If you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible.” The mustard seed knows that it will soon sprout into a beautiful plant, far greater than anything it could comprehend. It is understanding that the inner impulse you have, the desire you possess, is not coming from your mind, but coming from the Highest part of You. For we are all Source, we are all God.
I say these words to you from an experience that could have only been conquered through Faith. Faith in myself that I was strong enough to endure the storms, and even greater, Faith in the Love that we all are in our complete awareness. We ALL possess this. Choose Faith. Choose Love. Embody Love, and walk with Faith, and all things will soon be yours.
This is Law.
“Desire ye what ye will, and behold, it standeth before thee. Throughout the aeons it is has been thine without thy knowing, e’en though thou hast but just asked for it.”
With All My LOVE,
Zach IAM
You Said THAT?!
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Recently I have been noticing a few things regarding interpersonal encounters on a social networking website, especially coming from my male brethren. Now, there will be no lesson to learn from this, no real deep spiritual questioning, just some observations, and possibly questions we could ask ourselves to understand our behaviors. So here goes nothin’.
Most of the women that I am friends with, or acquainted with, are conventionally quite beautiful. Men seem to fawn over them and find them to be physically beautiful. As such, these girls (women I guess, but we’re all boys and girls let’s be honest) receive much attention and praise when they post a picture of their face, and a lot of attention when they post a body picture, especially of one in a swimsuit or the like. Now, when I read the comments of the men who they are friends with, I think to myself, “Why in the world did you say THAT? Why weren’t you just up-front?”
Usually something along the lines of, “Nice tan” or “Cute sandals” when it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure out that you’re actually saying, “I find you incredibly physically attractive and I want you to notice me!” So my question is, why are we not more direct? Why don’t we just say what we feel? These are serious questions to ask yourself if you are reading this? Why beat around the bush when all you need to do is change your words so that you express your true feelings and intentions?
Now this next little segment is for my female friends, my sisters. When these men comment on your photos why is it that you ignore them? And moreover, why do you find it annoying to have men you don’t know giving you compliments? That would seem like something you could appreciate, instead of condemn. And lastly, why do you become frustrated that men don’t see the “real you” when you never show that part of yourself? You just post pictures of you in full make-up and/or in a bikini and expect men to look past that and not get a thousand likes. My dear sisters, most men have been conditioned since they were young, and that conditioning didn’t come with a program that said, “Stop looking at her lady parts and tell her how smart she looks!”
Returning to my brothers, if you do happen to do this, recognize it. I would never say to stop it, well I might but I don’t mean it. Just be aware. Be aware of WHY you are commenting on this photo or that photo. Are you doing it because you actually DO like her shoes? Yes…okay that is fine. Are you doing it because you want to be noticed? Yes…okay that is fine too, but recognize that you can just as easily say, “You are a beautiful young lady.” It’s that simple. Does that mean she will respond the way you want her to? Maybe, maybe not, but at least you took the leap of being honest.
And sisters, if this DOES happen to you, a boy commenting on your photo, be appreciative that you have someone who finds you attractive. Do you have to go on a date with him and lead him on? Absolutely not, a simple genuine thank you is more than enough. But also be aware of why you are posting pictures? Could it be that you DO want the attention but might not be getting it from the group you would like it?
I am just throwing things out there. WHY are we choosing to act the way we do? Why do we refuse to be honest with ourselves and share our true feelings? WHY? That is really it. Just questioning our behaviors and hopefully learning in the process 🙂
All My Love
Zach IAM
The Image of a Son
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Tonight, as I was eating my dinner and listening to Jason Mraz, I was hit with an image in my mind of my dad and I watching Jason Mraz perform in Berkeley. This past October we had taken a day trip to our old stoppin’ grounds in Oakland where I received my chemotherapy treatment and got to enjoy the culture of Berkeley before we got to see the most amazing concert performed by the fantastic Jason Mraz. While I revisited this memory in my mind, another image flooded into my awareness, an image of me holding my son. And I immediately thought, “Will I have the relationship with my son that my dad and I had?”
This brought on a flood of confusion and anxiety, one because I don’t even have a girlfriend-and definitely no son, and the other because I have been blessed with such an amazing father that I didn’t know if I could develop that type of relationship with my son. For the first time in my life I had a slight glimpse of what all my parent-friends say being a parent is like and how amazing it is, because for a second I actually thought I had a son.
But this 3 second awakening made me realize how incredibly blessed I am! You see, my father and I have a wonderful relationship, as do my mother and I, but my dad and I have seemed to develop a bond that goes FAR beyond that of a regular father-son relationship. Again, so do my mother and I, but this image made me recognize something special.
I have always looked up to my dad. I think that is natural for most young boys to look up to their fathers. As most girls look up to their mothers. But to this day I still look up to my father. I am still enamored by his strength, courage, gentleness, kindness, and love.
My dad has always supported me, he has questioned me, but always supported me. And I realized how few people in this world are blessed enough to have parents that love them so incredibly dearly and unconditionally as my parents. I meet people all the time that have strained relationships with their parents, that can’t wait to be on their own and not deal with their family, but I am not one of those people, quite the opposite. I feel everyday that my mom and dad love me whole-heartedly and they display that. I FEEL loved!
I tell people about my mountain climb with cancer and they always say, “Wow, you are so strong, I don’t know what I would’ve done had that happened to me.” And I think to myself, “Well if you had the loving family I do that wouldn’t even be a question.” I cannot remember a time in my life when I didn’t feel loved. Even when I was a stinker and my parents were upset with me, I always felt loved.
My dad has ALWAYS put his dreams on hold so that my brothers and I never had to want for anything. My mom as well!!! They have both ALWAYS done what they felt they needed to do so that my brothers and I always had everything we needed. I know many of my parent-friends who read this can agree with that feeling and I just wanted to express my gratitude to my parents for doing that!
Thank you mom and dad for letting me fall down while also helping me back up. Thank you for always letting me make my own decisions and being there to help me clean up the messes. Thank you for letting me get dirty and being there to give me a bath (when I was little of course 😉 ). Thank you for always telling me,”Goodnight, I love you.” Thank you for always demonstrating what a kind, loving, stern, frustrated, etc., etc., parent should be. I have always felt loved and some day I will know what it is like to be in your shoes, and I know that you will still be there helping me along the way in that new journey as well!
I truly could not have asked for 2 better people to have been my guides in this life experience! I chose you 2 for a reason! Tonight I was given the gift as to why that was, I not only understood why anymore, but I FELT why.
I guess I am writing this not because I want to make anyone feel bad about their relationship with their parents, but to recognize that that our parents will always love us. They might not always like our words, our actions, our choices, nor we like their words, actions, or choices, but I truly believe that they will always love us. They chose to be our guides just as much as we chose them to be our guides, and we all chose these for a reason. They have helped us, in one way or another, to become who we are and to learn. And for that I am grateful.
All My Love,
Zach Iam
Co-Dependency Addiction
UncategorizedHi Friends,
Just a few thoughts I wanted to share on our tendency for co-dependent behaviors.
All My Love,
Zach IAM
Faith of Trees
UncategorizedHi Friends,
Wanted to share an idea that came to me and got me thinking…
All My Love,
Zach
Return To Innocence
UncategorizedMany think that adulthood is the opposite of childhood. That in moving through life experience one must become hardened, smarter, more methodical. We do not realize that that in itself is what is deteriorating our body temple. That is why so many Masters say that we must return to a child-like state. In order to BE at peace we must return to a state of innocence. To begin to experience this reality anew. To begin to view the world with a sense of wonder, of non-judgement. To fully experience your now. To live with a heart of faith and trust. This does not mean to act immaturely…it means to see the world with the beauty that it possesses, while walking with the maturity you have awakened. Our lives are journeys, journeys through many paths, and as each of us walk our path we can choose to walk stiffly through the forest complaining all the way until we reach the end, or we can bask in the trees, sunlight, and beauty that surrounds us each step of the way. It is all a journey, how to you want to experience it? ♥
All My Love,
Zach IAM ❤
What’s Your Story?
UncategorizedHey Friends,
I want to know what your story is? What makes you the beautiful, wonderful, extension of Source that you are?
All My Love,
Zach IAM
Anniversary of a Bone Marrow Transplant
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I’d like to tell you all a story…a story of a young man who exactly 9 earth revolutions around the sun ago (or 9 years) had a bone marrow transplant. This is a short story about suffering, deep intense suffering, and the results of that suffering. So if you have time, and this calls to you, here we go…
After 7 straight days of full body radiation 2 times per day, 2 days of intense chemotherapy, and 2 days to prepare for the day of reckoning, that day had finally come, February 12, 2004. As he laid there he watched the nurse come in to his room and inject the pre-meds into his chest catheter. 30 minutes later the Bone Marrow Transplant team of doctors walked in to his room with 2 liters of stem cells harvested from an unknown donor. They hung the blood on the pump stand and the process began. It was just another blood transfusion, but this blood was the blood that would now run through his veins, no longer the blood of fear and stress, but that of new life, a rebirth.
The transfusion went perfectly as planned, but the days to follow were going to be the most physically and emotional demanding moments of his young life. More difficult than the first 9 months of chemotherapy that he endured during his first diagnosis, and more difficult than the days of holding himself up without moving while receiving full-body radiation in the previous weeks. As if he had questions before about the meaning of life and why 2 year old children were being diagnosed with cancer, this experience would not only test him far beyond anything he could imagine but would catapult him into a realm of questioning.
The radiation had begun to show it’s side-effects…constant nausea while being unable to vomit because he no longer had any stomach acids to throw up, intense burning sensations in his hands as if his hands were on fire, excruciating sores along his mouth and trachea not allowing him to swallow but only drool. Each day his body withered away more and more because of his inability to move, unable to muster up the strength to even get up and shower most days. He constantly used morphine to dull the pain and to put him into a self-induced coma because of the constant pain.
His parents looked on at this in despair. Feeling unable to do anything but send their love to him and answer any request he had, not knowing that that was the most powerful thing they could have done. Not knowing whether their first-born son would live or die, stay sleeping or awaken, speak to their son or to the altered state of consciousness he became from the drugs. What they didn’t know was that their Love would help him through this and he would fight through the darkness to bring forth the Light.
The month following February 12, 2004 seemed to be a dream for him…entering in and out of consciousness from all of the morphine he continually pushed until he finally began to awake from the fog. As he did, he no longer recognized the form that he perceived the world through. His temple had been pillaged from substances that at the time had removed the impurities.
As the days passed, he dreamed to enter into the world again. To not be stuck in a prison for healing. Staring out the window, wishing to walk in fresh air again. He dreamt of the young man he had been…the athlete, the joker, the ladies man. The days went by, and he began to fall into a depression. He looked at where he was and was so scared that the mountain he would have to climb was far too great. He questioned at times if he had the strength to climb the mountain before him. He fell deeper and deeper into sadness. He called his father on the phone one night sobbing, spilling all of his fears that he didn’t know if he was strong enough to climb this mountain. Crying, wanting to give up. His father did his best to console him, to support him, to send the boy his Love. When the call ended, the boy felt stronger. At that moment, a voice within told him that he would get through it. That although the mountain seemed far too daunting to conquer, that together they would walk as One and reach the top. The boy didn’t know what was telling him this, but he KNEW that the voice was right.
As the days passed into April, the boy began to find more strength. His family surrounded him with Love and he knew that he was strong enough to overcome this obstacle. His physical strength improved week by week, and the stem cells began to assimilate into his body, to recognize their new home. Finally, the boy was allowed to re-enter the world.
It took many months for him to fully regain his strength physically. It took a determination not of his own will, but the Spirit within that pushed him along. He knew within his heart that his experiences had not occurred to simply be forgotten. He had experienced this suffering so that he may help heal others. He did not know how he would help heal others, but he knew that with the Power of his will and the will of the Father within that he would help.
Now, as I’m sure most of you who have read this have figured out, this story is about me, Zach. Most years this day passes by and I don’t even recognize it, but this year I felt compelled to write this. In this new age of Aquarius, this age of Unity and Love, I felt that this story may help some of my brothers and sisters out there who are suffering. I am always asked, “Did you ever feel like giving up?” And this shows you just how close I was. I wanted so badly to give up, to call it quits because I didn’t see how I could possibly reach the mountain top. I knew that was where I wanted to be and I could see myself there, I just had no idea how I could accomplish that. But I always had that little voice within me, that God-Self, Higher Self, pushing me along, just as it pushes you and all of us along in difficult times.
I’m always asked, “That must have been horrible. How did you get through it.” All I can say is, I kept walking. I chose to listen to the voice that said, “I AM here with you and together we will overcome this,” rather than the one that said, “This is too much, you should just give up.” And…I had a lot of support behind me — parents, siblings, and family members that loved me. The other question I always get asked is, “Did you ever ask ‘Why me?'” Of course I did! But I didn’t ask that and want someone else to get sick, I just wanted to know why I got sick, period! It’s normal, if you’re not questioning why things are happening how will you ever learn from them? How will you ever help others to live the life they want if you’re not questioning how you got the life you have?
But I ultimately wanted to write this to say that although this story sounds horrible, for everyone involved, every time I think about it I feel grateful. I feel grateful that I suffered like I did! Everything that I experienced in my past has made me exactly who I am today. The vomiting, the mouth sores, the crying, the despair, the physical deterioration and weakness, the chest catheter, the pain in my family’s eyes, the pain in the eyes of other families who had a sick child, all of it. Do I wish I could go back and heal every single child that I met in the hospital…absolutely!!! Do I wish I could have told the nurses to give me the chemo instead of those children…absolutely!!! But I also know that the suffering experienced by those children and their families, as well as mine, have made their souls evolve and become stronger.
Every bit of suffering has made me stronger, just as each step up the mountain has made me stronger. Our suffering makes us who we are. Does it always feel great while we’re in it?…absolutely not. Do we emerge stronger and evolved from it?…Absolutely!
On this day, which has immense significance for me, I am grateful for every bit of suffering that has allowed me to become who I am today. I want you all to know that even though it may be difficult, you are so much stronger than you recognize and you will always have Source walking with you when you feel weak. These experiences are dear to my growth and I wanted to share them with you…my dearest brothers and sisters. This is the first time I have expressed this to anyone, and I am honored to have shared this with you all. I Love You all so much, truly and forever, and hope this message can help you see how incredibly strong You are!
With All My Love, ❤
Zach IAM
Spiritual Life Coach | Zach Tavcar 