I am slightly brooding as I write this. You see, I have stopped writing about MY experiences as a way to connect and hopefully demonstrate to those of you who read this that we are all going through such similar experiences. Now, today I was shown how others still look at me in a way that I find completely contradictory to the potential that lies within me. And I wanted to share what that was…
Out of respect I will only mention that I was shown how my inner worth was once again challenged. I have actually been challenged a few times in the last week which shows me that there is still inner work that I need to partake in. However, I find it so fascinating how we still perceive each other. I was told that I wasn’t a good business man and, in a round about way, told that I wouldn’t achieve the financial abundance that I perceive myself as acheiving.
I find it frustrating and at the same time motivating to hear these things. You see, the last time I felt this challenged was when my pediatric oncologist, a world renown pediatric bone marrow doctor, told me I would never play football again at the age of 15. My dream however was to eventually become a professional athlete. Nonetheless, this man telling me I WOULDN’T do something motivated the living fuck out of me! In my mind, there was no doubt that I would play football again, and be better than ever! Needless to say, 2 years later I was starting on my high school football team. After I relapsed, the first thing that doctor said to me when he walked into my room was, “I heard you’re playing football again.” After months of treatment my dad asked that same doctor if I would be able to play football again and he replied, “I won’t tell Zach he can’t do anything anymore. Every time I do, he does it anyway.”
What this is leading into is exactly my experience from today. As I heard this person’s thoughts, I thought to myself, “What in the fuck?! Do you not understand that I beat cancer twice!? I am able to run again after having been told by multiple doctors that I would only run again with a hip replacement?! I have the Universe at large as my supplier! I am in constant union with the Source of creation!” I was mad!!! I couldn’t believe that I was literally being called out because someone thought I was less than what my potential is…simply because I haven’t achieved a financial state that others deem as successful! Heck, I’m still mad!!!
Now what Source said to me in the midst of this experience was, “Forgive them, for they know not who they’re dealing with.” Now it sounds funny, and I actually laughed a bit, but I thought, “Thank you! Thank you for always being with me and guiding me when nobody else truly believed in me.”
I realized right then, that no matter what, only I, only you, are going to be strong enough to have the faith in yourself that will take you the heights unseen by others. Only I am capable of knowing my potential and I can’t give a shit what anybody else thinks. Truthfully, as much as we would like others to believe in us, whether it’s our parents, siblings, significant other, closest friends, nobody will truly believe in you other than you! I have to be strong enough to say, “I CAN accomplish this feat! And I will with the help and support of nothing other than the Source of Life! Together, the Mother/Father Principle and I WILL accomplish what others have deemed impossible! Together, Source and I WILL overcome any obstacle that comes us! Together, God and I WILL manifest magic and BE the example that the world has been looking for!”
You see, this world is full of others wanting to press their own limitations upon you. Unfortunately, most humans are afraid. They are not only afraid of what others may accomplish, they are afraid that if someone else demonstrates the impossible, they will then have to change and adapt to the unseen possibilities that lie within them.
As a life coach, I do my best to speak with my clients about the infinite possibilities that are dormant within them. I speak on the unseen magic that lies at the very heart of the individual. However, as I’ve continued with my work, I’ve realized that words truly don’t teach. The mind has a very difficult time grasping the unseen. And even once something is demonstrated, the human mind continues to have difficulty adapting to the magic of God. However, it is not up to us to teach everyone HOW to live in the magic of Life. It is only up to us to live in the magic of life and let those who are ready to experience that as well follow our example.
As I write, I find myself disappointed. Disappointed in the fact that those who have heard the success that I live each day by being alive, still question my worth. I am a man who has studied the masters that have come before us for a third of my life, wishing nothing more than to embody the kindness, compassion, joy, peace, and love that these men and women have demonstrated. And yet, after all the work I’ve done on myself, I can still be seen in a light that is more than unbecoming of what I wish to express. Yet this teaches me that no matter what, not everyone will witness you for who you want to be. Because this is a world that is all about reflection and attraction, each experience I have is a reminder of what I am feeling about myself.
The disappointment is not merely in myself for being thrown by the opinions of others, but rather my inability to stand firm in the knowing of my own worth. Worth is not calculated by the “things” that you have accumulated. Worth is not calculated by the people you have manipulated. Worth is not calculated by the titles you’ve been given. Worth is calculated by the love you have embodied and your ability to share that with others. Worth is calculated by your ability to inspire hope in others and influence them to love more.
The only way to overcome the opinions of others is to stand firm in your knowing as a Divine child. Only through the acknowledgement of your Divine grace can you overcome the opinions of others. Once we can truly know who we are, we can give thanks for those who show us exactly what it is we can continue to work on. For then they are messengers from Source on what our next step is in the remembrance of our Divine potential and inheritance. That is awakening. That is freedom.
All My Love,