Hello my Lovelies,
I ask you this question in all seriousness…ARE YOU ALIVE OR JUST EXISTING?
I began asking myself this question today after I started reading a new book…”The Way of the Superior Man” by David Deida. Now in one of his chapters he asks you if you are finding your edges in life, your fears, and are you moving past them? Are you truly conquering those fears? And as fears arise each day are you continuing to move beyond them…or at least facing them with full presence? And then a statement from the song, “Everybody Wear Sunscreen” by Boz Luhrman where he says, “Do one thing every day that scares you!” came flooding into my thoughts.
And you know what I realized…I am not doing something everyday that scares me! I am just existing!!! I can post this and that about raising ourselves consciously and Being Love, but yet I have capped myself off from this physical experience! I have found that I absolutely LOVE conversing with others but do I truly get out of my comfort zone and push past it? Not really! Sure I can engage in conversation with just about anyone, sure I can speak my inner Truth from the Divine Core that bursts from my heart, absolutely I can take my shirt off and walk around downtown all night…but can I maintain that Presence and strength when it comes to talking to a girl I think is beautiful? Can I approach someone on the workout floor and offer them a free workout? NO! No I can’t!!! Actually, YES I CAN! I just haven’t yet! 😉
But my own revelation was that I am allowing my ego, that part of me (of us all) that says we are separate, to win. As much as I am consciously aware of my ego and understand it, I do nothing to move beyond it…to move beyond the points of comfort it has established! And then I thought, “Dang, what kind of example am I? I say all these things but I can’t even talk to a girl I’m attracted to because I’m still afraid of rejection!!” BOOM!!! There it is folks, Zach’s krytocronalyte! 😉
In all honesty though, can you see this for yourself? Can you see these points of comfort your ego has established and how scary it is to step beyond them?! But is that not what living is?!?! It is meant to be scary…to feel your stomach fluttering full of butterflies, your heart pounding, BOOM! BOOM! BOOM!, to be lost for words, and then….BANG!!! We take the leap! And how does it turn out? Sometimes it is the outcome we want, sometimes it isn’t…but isn’t it so much darn fun to get out there all alone, not knowing what will happen, and then jumping?!?! THAT IS LIFE!!! THAT IS LIVING!!!
How many of us are simply existing? Myself included, up until today when I made the conscious choice to scare the shit out of myself every day!!! 😉 How many of us won’t tell that person we adore that he/she is stunning? How many of us won’t get out of the crappy job because we don’t know where to go from here? How many of us refuse to take up an activity because we’re comfortable watching our favorite shows?
I am not saying any of that is bad, or good, I just want to know if you are living the scary, exciting, dramatic, free life you would like to live? No matter who we are we want excitement in our lives…that’s why we watch movies! Why not make your own life a movie! (In dramatic movie-man voice) “Coming in May we have the greatest movie ever written, with a cast unlike any other, it will make you laugh, cry, it will chill you and thrill you, you’ll hear words never spoken unto human ears, you will feel emotions you didn’t know existed, you’ll be enamored by every moment, you’ll see lust and Love, sensuality and spankings, you’ll never want to leave the theater, STARRING……..YOU!!!!”
Now doesn’t that sound like fun?!?!?! It sure does to me and from now on I am choosing to live!! Sitting at home by myself on a Saturday night no longer entices me! I want fear, joy, crying, laughter, peace, turmoil, serenity, confusion….I want to live from the deepest place of my Self, in which I can share my gifts to this world! And gosh dang it, my life WILL be a movie! My movie!
Let’s LIVE my dear brothers and sisters! Let us face every fear with a Presence unimaginable to the human eye. Let us feel every second of the flutters in our stomachs and the pounding in our chests! Let us remember why we are here…to stir up some shit and make the world a united, indescribable place where all are welcome and cry like babies!!! Let us LIVE!!! I Love each and every one of You, more than you know!!
All My Love,
Originally posted 4/23/2013