I don’t know if it’s just me, but it feels as if the last few weeks have just been a state of constant questioning for me. The other day Shauna, my fiancé, looks at me and asks if everything is alright and I just replied, “I don’t know, I feel like I’m questioning everything in my life. I’m wondering why I’m here on this planet, what is the purpose of it all if we are just going to die and then come back anyways?” And fully, from the depth of my “then-heart,” I was serious.
The last time I had such a state of questioning was after I was finally coming out of all my treatments from my bone marrow transplant. I had just watched The Secret and was questioning the nature of reality. I had finally found a documentary that forced me to understand myself deeper. That state of questioning led me down the rabbit hole and to the place I am now living. That quest led me to my true love, to understanding my purpose deeper, to being surrounded by successful and wonderful friends, to doing things that world renowned doctors said I couldn’t, and yet here I am back to that exact same quest.
Quest-ioning Gets Confusing Doesn’t It??
As I hopped right back on this quest, I couldn’t help but wonder why I am right back where I started. As I write this, I am still wondering. However, each day I feel as though I am understanding more. I ask myself why I get up so dreadfully early to train clients, I ask myself why I exercise, I ask myself why I do anything really. And as I ask myself these quest-ions the only answer that keeps coming back to me is…JOY. It’s all for joy!
If you look at my Youtube videos, if you look back at my previous writings, I have been speaking about eternal Love and joy for as long as I have been doing this. And yet, here I am, as human as they come, quest-ioning everything just as we all inevitably do…confused as ever…supposed to be teaching others and yet at this very moment the clarity fails me.
You see my friends, there is this voice inside me right now whispering to me, telling me to keep walking. This voice is reminding me that this is truly a quest, and ultimately the quest is joy. The voice is speaking clearly to me now, reminding me of my deepest purpose, to give love, to receive love, to BE Love. I wish I could explain this voice to you, but you already know it all too well. This voice is the eternal One, the infinite guide, the Great Speaker. This voice is the truth of my soul, of your soul, of our unity.
The Eternal Voice Speaks…
The voice whispers to me, “Be still my son, for you have journeyed as far as any other, you have come to the mountain peak, and as you continue on your journey you will find another. Stop for a minute and observe. My son, witness the beauty I that lays before you. You have gained a perspective unlike many, and this perspective confuses you. As you look outward into the valley you can hardly believe that out there, so far away, is where you have journeyed from. Your mind has a difficult time comprehending the magnitutde of your current height. But nonetheless, sit and witness all the glory that is yours. Look at how far you ha traveled, and remember that your journey is an eternal one, never to be found complacent because as this ends, another begins.
“Child, this place of quest-ioning is a natural progression of growth, time to reflect and accept how far you have come. Let the strength and understanding you have gained sink into the depths of your being, strengthening all aspects of your life. This height is a journey that all my children must make, and they will need a guide. Remember the path, be humble for you have ventured where few have asked to go, but many will seek to find. My purpose for you is to be the Love you know you are. My purpose for you is to recognize your passion and to follow that. As you have come to know, you are the creator of your life and I will support you in whichever decision you take, but I wish for you joy. I wish you take the path of freedom, of excitement, of enthusiasm, for that is the journey to your heart, that is the journey to Me. And do not be afraid to journey astray, for I will always guide you back, but ultimately you must choose to see it for the potential that lies within it, and see that wherever you are is a chance for joy.”
The Quest is Joy…
My friends, our Inner Voice has whispered to me these words. We are all on our quests. We all have quest-ions about which direction our life is going and hopefully these words have eased your heart as they have eased mine. The world is a constant reminder to seek joy. The world is a constant reminder of that which we are emitting. We are creators, working in harmony with the Great Manager, that Presence which will always support us and be there for our highest good. Mirroring back to us that which is for our greatest development, and our current state of vibration. Continue to quest, continue to journey, but always remember that we are watched and guided, always.
All My Love,