Recently I have been asked on more than one occasion why I am so happy. At first I thought, “Well, I’ve been through cancer twice as an adolescent, you’d be happy and positive too!!!” However, that got me to thinking why I really am so happy and positive. Why in the world do I look at this experience we call life so much differently than my contemporaries and the mass majority around me? As I thought about it, I came up with some reasons why I seem to see the world in a light that those around me find appealing.
First and foremost, yes, I went through chemotherapy, full body radiation, and a bone marrow transplant to rid my body of cancerous cells. And as much, as that was a horrific experience to go through, that was the absolute catalyst to diving deeper into the questioning that has led me to where I am. In addition to that, I witnessed children, and their families, from the age of 1 year to 16 years, suffer so immensely from having their body poisoned as the only viable option to eliminate cancerous cells from their bodies. Not only that, but the mental and spiritual toll it took on the children and their families was overwhelming. When you witness a 7-year-old suffer and die in such a way, you start to ask a whole lot of questions. As a result, you find a whole lot of answers. Here are mine…
I know without a question of a doubt that life is not happening TO me, but FOR me. I choose to look at life as if everything that is happening around me comes from the internal processes (thoughts, beliefs) that I am emitting. I don’t give anybody else control over MY life! I know that there is a Presence, you may call it God, Spirit, Source, whatever resonates with you, that is giving me whatever I am living for a prolonged period of time. I know that if I am feeling concerned, fearful, and mad, that what I am thinking and what I am wanting are in no way in harmony. That soon enough the results of the thoughts that cause me to feel fearful, concerned, and mad will manifest experiences that I will not enjoy. And so I choose the alternative.
I also choose to look at myself as the victor of my life. This may stem from the fact that my body healed after having been overcome with cancerous cells, but I know that my belief in the fact that I would survive and be completely healthy once again was the number one factor in my being here today. I know that no matter what, if I can change my thoughts long enough and therefore alter my beliefs, that I life will have no choice but to manifest the results of those thoughts and beliefs.
I also choose to look at myself as an extension of the very thing we call God. I see myself, and every other human, animal, plant, and thing as an extension of God, our Source. I see myself as having access to that Source at any time as long as I am willing to speak and ask. I know that I receive communication from God within an instant because that Infinite Presence is always with me, guiding me, protecting me, and truly the REAL me. I see this with everyone and therefore I have no pity for my fellow brothers and sisters. I know that each of us is the complete creator of our reality. I have no doubts about that. The abundance, poverty, health, illness, love, loneliness, is a direct result of the thoughts and beliefs we hold and the co-creative experience with our Source. In each of those instances we are either letting the overwhelming well-being that is the natural state of God to flow into our lives, or we resisting it.
I am always happy because I don’t see myself as infinitely small, I see myself as a divine being in human form. I am always happy because I see my life as a magical dance in which sooner or later I will manifest all the magic possible. I am always happy because I choose to see love, instead of fear. I am always happy because I choose to see potential, not incompetence. I am always happy because I choose to see that there is always a Light in the midst of the darkness. I am always happy because long ago I decided that I would live fully, to mess shit up, to speak my Truth, to ask questions, to listen to the voice within, and to look for things that I could be grateful for.
Do I do anything special that my family and friends cannot do? Absolutely not! However, I have done my best to habituate a way of choosing to look at this thing we life. I have reminded myself again and again that the magic is all around, but most importantly always within. In the scheme of the Universe, we are so small, and if I refuse to accept my place as an extension of Source, then I can have the same mundane experience as everyone else. However, if I can take my rightful place as connected always to you and the Infinite Creator, God, then I am free, then I have taken my place as the great masters before me have come.
I hope you will do the same.
All My Love,